WEBVTT 00:00:00.300 --> 00:00:05.800 (onset of schizophrenia in an 18-year-old girl) 00:00:05.580 --> 00:00:10.480 (feelings of duplication, of mechanization, and psychomotor disorder) 00:00:28.600 --> 00:00:32.920 Could you explain to us why you admitted yourself to the psychiatric hospital? 00:00:33.240 --> 00:00:35.590 Yes, I admitted myself to the hospital 00:00:36.360 --> 00:00:38.740 I made an appointment because I was very nervous 00:00:38.940 --> 00:00:43.360 At work, I couldn't type on the typewriter, and I felt distanced from people 00:00:43.180 --> 00:00:46.640 I also felt like everyone was following me 00:00:46.280 --> 00:00:48.760 Everywhere I went, I saw someone behind me 00:00:51.800 --> 00:00:54.330 That really frightened me 00:00:55.200 --> 00:00:57.770 I was very afraid of people 00:00:58.900 --> 00:01:00.490 Why is that? 00:01:02.600 --> 00:01:06.250 For no real reason. I was just afraid of them. 00:01:08.380 --> 00:01:11.080 So you felt like they were following you? 00:01:10.800 --> 00:01:13.520 Yes, that was my impression 00:01:13.780 --> 00:01:17.540 Not necessarily in an evil way but... 00:01:17.580 --> 00:01:22.390 When I would move my arm, I felt like all eyes were pointed in my direction 00:01:22.400 --> 00:01:24.230 I felt threatened 00:01:27.120 --> 00:01:29.000 By someone specific? 00:01:28.880 --> 00:01:30.770 No, everybody 00:01:30.800 --> 00:01:33.720 Everybody was mad at me and it scared me 00:01:36.180 --> 00:01:39.160 Had this been going on for a long time? 00:01:38.760 --> 00:01:41.861 Yes, for three weeks before I made the appointment here, at the hospital 00:01:49.340 --> 00:01:51.451 Were there any other things that bothered you? 00:01:54.320 --> 00:01:57.437 Yes, I couldn't control my fingers anymore 00:01:57.780 --> 00:01:59.899 I couldn't wiggle them 00:02:00.020 --> 00:02:02.142 It was like I was frozen on the spot 00:02:04.360 --> 00:02:05.485 What does that mean? 00:02:06.240 --> 00:02:10.370 When I tried to move, I could only move my entire body at once 00:02:10.240 --> 00:02:13.373 It was impossible to coordinate my gestures and movements together 00:02:22.480 --> 00:02:25.625 Was it like your body was changed? 00:02:25.800 --> 00:02:28.948 Yes, I felt like i was split in two 00:02:29.700 --> 00:02:31.851 I was feeling very uncomfortable 00:02:32.340 --> 00:02:36.496 I really felt like I was splitting in two, for example when I went to work 00:02:37.860 --> 00:02:40.019 What do you mean by splitting? 00:02:40.480 --> 00:02:42.642 It almost felt like a dual consciousness 00:02:43.360 --> 00:02:46.526 2 different people between when I was at work and at home 00:02:53.680 --> 00:02:55.855 Could you elaborate? 00:02:56.360 --> 00:02:57.537 Yes 00:02:57.760 --> 00:02:59.939 At work i was very afraid of my boss 00:03:00.600 --> 00:03:03.783 She was being very sweet, but I couldn't help it 00:03:03.840 --> 00:03:08.027 I always feared her, from the beginning, even when she tried to reassure me 00:03:08.180 --> 00:03:12.372 There was also another person I was afraid of, even though they always supported me 00:03:15.580 --> 00:03:18.778 Unconsciously, I was scared 00:03:20.340 --> 00:03:22.542 So much that I could no longer write on the typewriter 00:03:23.660 --> 00:03:25.865 My fingers were stiffening 00:03:26.520 --> 00:03:28.728 And when I tried to turn around... 00:03:29.940 --> 00:03:32.151 I felt like... 00:03:34.060 --> 00:03:35.275 I was inside a... 00:03:37.100 --> 00:03:39.319 As if I were in armor 00:03:40.360 --> 00:03:42.582 I had become an automaton